at least i know not many people read t his so i can say this









wow. if i regret anything it was last week. God, what the hell was i thinking. its not what i want. yes i wasnt thinking i was off my fucking tits but...now i have an ongoing problem to deal with. yes, its a problem. because i like to be alone. i like to sit alone and read and not have to entertain, hug someone, be affectionate, act like im not a complete mess all the time.

its not sweeeet.